Alright,so

Well, another day bites the dust and I have found forgiveness for the anon commentor. I realize I may have over-reacted a bit upon my reply... but I feel strongly that when a relationship dictates something other than the norm, it is easily misunderstood. All relationships are different, and with them come different sets of rules and wants... this is why I so strongly suggest communication in relationships as it seems when communication is present, it is a win-win situation for everyone involved. Case in point; husband suggests perhaps a participation? I am open to this... if he communicates to me that it is his wish? I trust.

Anon commentor, I urge you to continue enjoying my blog... there is a reason you visited in the first place. There is a reason you felt to post your thoughts was so important, you are not a prude... you are just a different person, in a different relationship. And if this blog is to gear at people (beit women or men) who need to identify with sexuality and differences in relationships, then your comment is infact appreciated.. even if you subliminally called me a selfish bitch.
*wink wink*
I know you will read this and anticipate your reply.

And with that note I will share with you a piece of my past. The following is a poem I wrote some years ago after a very important relationship crumbled. No, it was not my first marriage.. this was before marriage, when I was young and impressionable. Yes, I was young... I have always been impressionable though.

Enjoy -

Water

Remember looking over the water?
Crisp, sweet air filled my lungs;
I think of you.

Not because I missed you terribly, no.
The shimmering waters give me a sense of home.
The water still ties us together
somehow.

I have a hard time enjoying it
without your soft lips caressing
the back of my neck.

I think often of what it would feel like
to make love once more to you
in the ocean.

Feeling the cold water
splashing our bodies.
As we generate waves of energy
into the shore,
and back again.

Now this one is a little more spicy.. I think this one was written before the relationship crumbled.. It was written while he was away.. in California...
You remember that, don't you? That was the beginning of the end.

LOVE

Crisp white clouds pierce the sky.
Your eyes turned to meet mine.
"Now?" you ask,
"Yes" I reply, watching you smile.
The sparkle in your eyes gives it all away.
It doesn't make me uncomfortable...
It makes me feel
like heaven.

The heaven I experience when I'm with you.
I feel the warm sun in my face,
the wind blow through my hair.
And still you smile...
"I love you."

I hear the waves pound against the shore,
the spray flying wildly.
You are the only focus I have,
everything is alright.
Arms like unlike any other.
Your hair falling softly into your eyes.
Eyes made of the bluest rain,
Reminds me of the first kiss.

I'm feeling rather drunk from your stare
even a little turned-on.
I can't help it
I need you tonight
don't stop this fantasy....
Don't wake me up.

Open my eyes,.. the sun is blinding
I feel betrayed, hurt
Alone
A familiar voice,
there you are.
"I love you."

If anyone would like to read more poetry, please do let me know.. I just came across folders and folders of it today... some with dates, some not. Pretty good shit, better than any diary I have ever written that's for sure.